Thursday, July 24, 2008
7/24/2008 06:01:00 PM
Was so lookin forward to today.. Haha. Because there's Jumpstyle! But hmmm.. Whether is it really worth lookin forward to, we shall see. Played badminton with Siti during PE today.. Waa.. Gt real tummy ache sia. Den play play liao after awhile gone le.. Haha. Exercise helps! Its been AGES since i last played badminton la.. I sucks at it sia.. Haha.. But still can play quite okay la.Anyway, after sch ended, was so happy la. Cuz its like 30 more mins to Jumpstyle le. Den rotted at NE Square until abt 145 liddat den go buy burger with Siti den go back NE Square and eat.. Den at 2pm le, i still eatin sia. Haha.. Den gt a few newcomers, so was like seeing them la. Cuz i learn liao.. Den after tt went to join the rest to revise the steps again den found out tt actually dere's 1 more step missing from my steps.. Was like tryin so hard to figure it out la.. Den Siti managed to figure it out but i still cant. Haiz.. Den keep practicing and practicing but end up still dunno how.. Den gt me so pissed off la.. Den i go sit down and watch them practice..Well hmmm.. Halfway thru, they were told to get into pairs la.. Den i just realised tt, well.. I thot Siti might ask me to join or smt la, den see whether i feel like or nt lor. But den she went with other ppl.. I know, u might be thnking, but i dunno how to get the steps right ma.. But at least still can ask ma. Its the sincerity tt counts.. But she nvr la. Den i see liao.. Waa.. More pek chek.. Den after tt they scream here scream dere.. Den when she drinkin water tt time den come and talk to me.. Like uh?? Nvm.. Maybe i was just being over paranoid abt it..Den after tt, JunJie come from D&T.. Took him 1 freakin hour to just spray paint la.. Den msg him also nvr reply.. Den after tt come and chit chat with me.. But by the time he come liao, Jumpstyle is like ending in 10 mins le la.. Den okay nvm.. Den after tt he go sit with other ppl and chit chat.. Nvm nvm.. Den i gt Carmen to come back to sch to accompany me go home la. Den since gt another new CCA called Freestyle den we see awhile lor.. Den after tt, Carmen asked JunJie wanna go home annot. Den he say orh anything lor. Den after tt when everybody leavin liao, he just walk away with tt grp of frens la.. Didnt know he was like so close to them lor.. Like.. Hmmm, nvr see them hanging out b4 de lei. Like so sudden la. Even since last thurs, den they so close le. Den me and Carmen just walk to interchange with Siti and JianXiong lor.. Den we almost miss the bus. Haha.. Den on the bus, Carmen told me, i thot JunJie will like go home together with us la.. But end up he just walk away.. Den i just say ya den keep quiet.. Hmmm.. Brothers???Well, i just dunno if thurs is my day lor.. Last thurs, durin PE, its like.. All my frens PS me la.. Carmen they all got their own badminton.. Den Amanda hand pain so cant blame her.. Den Angel gt her own clique from N1 de ma.. Den nvm.. Den Siti ar.. She just liddat walk away lei.. Den i ask her accompany me lei, den she say okok later. Den end up, i was sitting alone in some isolated corner of the field dere la.. Like, my frens all just suddenly became nt my frens lor.. I just felt so so so lonely and nobody to talk to and all.. I just wanna cry la.. Den i bad mood le lor. Den until recess time, Siti didnt even come and join me. Den for the whole of recess, i nvr say anything.. Just super bad mood la. Just felt tt, does true frens or BFF really exist in dis world.. Ppl may always say waa im Mr Popular, everybody also say hi to me and all. But its all just superficial lor. Underneath, im a nobody la.. In class, when we need to pair up to do grp work or some project, everybody wanna pair with me. Why? Because im suppose to know more facts and knowledge den can get higher marks.. But when outside alone and all.. Nobody wanna pair with me la.. I just feel super super lonely lor.. Wondering if thurs is really my day.. Happened twice in a row already..Leon:(Labels: True Friends BFF Brother??? Or Just Skin Deep..
